Monday, July 24, 2017

Science VS Christianity

Science and Christianity are two very contradicting subject and if you were to to argue with one another, there would be an unending debate.

There are many things in the bible that couldn't be explained in science. For example, the parting of the sea, water turned into wine and most of all the Resurrection of Jesus. There's no scientific evidence of these things, and we cannot perform any of the magical bible incidents today. If not, the whole earth would be drenching with free wine everyday, which now I think about, it's not a good thing. 

Science on the other hand, has a comprehensive and detailed proven method to prove something, and it's reliable because it can be done and witness many times. Nevertheless, in some cases science without testimony would be pure waste. Beauty products for instance, no matter how much science try to prove it useful, if there's no testimonies from the users, others won't be convinced to buy your product. So you'll need both to be a strong and persuasive marketer.

While science has evidence and properly recorded procedures to prove itself, Christianity has nothing, all it has was testimony. Yet millions have claimed that they experience the wonderful grace and mercy of God. I myself have a few too. And that's why I still believe in God, but not going to church or read the bible. Because going to church means I have to accept the entire bible, which is contradicting by itself and also accepting the other ridiculous things they do.

I used to follow everything in the bible. I followed what my church members did. Some of the things they did I find it ridiculous, and yet I still follow, most probably because of peer pressure. It's a psychological effect called social conformity. Everyone was doing it, it would be odd if you didn't. They told me to speak in tongue which is just saying out random meaningless words. They asked me to prophesy, I saw cupcakes when I closed my eyes, most probably I was hungry or yearning for cupcakes at that time. I was taught that spreading the gospel is every Christian's duty, and I did, I shared with a few strangers and my popo.

All of these ideas were planted in my head every week I went to church. The interesting part is once these idea had been planted, it would grow and grow stronger. No matter how ridiculous it may sound. These deeply rooted ideas had cause some of the christian communities to view things only from their perspective. I once had a conversation with a few church member about gay issues, they straight away refuted my point without understanding the scientific fact which I was about to share with them. A vital concerning social matter turned into a subjective topic. 

I'm not saying that I fully support the LGBT, but at least I'll try to understand the whole concept. I accept facts from science and discuss it with an open heart. Not just strictly shut away people's findings and all that. Getting ridiculed and treated unequally by the society have caused many LGBT to suffer from mental illness, that's why I'm very into this issue. I always wonder how does a Christian psychologist stay objective while attending to their patients? Speaking of objective, I have met a psychiatrist who shared the quran verses with me once, she even encouraged me to read the quran.

By the way, a recent incident about a transgender male who gave birth to a child shocked the whole world. I was thinking, if you wanted to be a man, why still give birth? Are you the father or the mother? So yeah, all I can say is the world is getting more and more chaotic. All we can do now is pray.

Some Christians says you can only stand on one side, some even gone to the extend that you don't need medication to heal, this is not right by the way. However, they didn't realize that while standing firm on the belief of Christianity, they are also accepting science at the same time, wearing a glasses for instance, that was actually a prescription for your eyes.

Science has become part of our lives, without science we cannot survive. At the same time, we need a belief, Christianity for example, helps us to stay to the core of our moral values as well as giving us a sense of security. Whether or not there's a God, believing in something mighty can psychologically helps you to feel secure. There are a lot of things science cannot control. For instance, when you're in a plane, science convinced you that it is safe, but a prayer will lead you to believe that you ARE safe. Science and Christianity can exists together concurrently. Many famous scientists are Christians. Isaac Newton, Galileo and Pascal were fine examples. 

Christian haters, especially the LGBT communities, not all Christians are homophobic, some of us are not as rigid as a raw spaghetti. Despite some flaws in the bible, it has good teachings too. Some verses are encouraging and lifting. As for the atheist, have you ever wondered why our planets never collide with each other but there are car accidents everyday? That's because men invented the the road while God created the universe.

Christians out there, when a depressed person reveals to you about their problems, please don't just plainly shove down verses into their throat. Sometimes when a person is depressed, he or she might lose faith in everything, including God. So sometimes it's better to listen, and maybe give a warm hug if you're right beside them. You can also say a simple sentence like this:"I understand that you're going through a lot of pain right now, thanks for sharing it with me."  

I stopped going to church because at some point of my life I lost faith, but I still couldn't get rid of God. The idea of God has been deeply ingrained inside me, it was like a magical flame, every time it dies, it will reignite itself. Talking about magic, can't wait for J.K.Rowling two new upcoming books.

All I wanna say that I'm now more open to many possibilities. Perhaps the prophecy was right, I'm baking right now, but baking is not my ultimate goal, I have something bigger in mind that I wanna achieve one day.  

God bless everyone.

Sunday, July 23, 2017

Moving on

Along the journey, I've learnt so many things. However, there is one pivotal lesson that I've yet to master - Moving On.

If there is a hypothesis for this life lesson, I would call it "The longer you dwell on your past, the longer you're stuck and cannot move on."

Here's a good example. I happened to meet an old millionaire living far inside the kampung area, don't play play oh, kampung people can also be a millionaire. He owns a few acres of fruit plantation including durians. So this chatty ah pak and I were talking and I found out that he's also the owner of an electrical repair company. He mentioned that he also has repaired ovens, I got excited because I have always wanted an oven, a convection oven. So I asked him for the address, but I couldn't understand as I'm not good with maps and roads. So I asked my mum to listen to him.

After we bought some really cheap dalit durian from him, we headed back and ready to find this repair company. However, when we hit the road, my mother said she didn't actually get the direction, so we ended up winding around Bundusan area with minimal information that I got. So I told my mum I got frustrated and upset as we lost an opportunity to find cheap oven. We have walked into so many kitchenware and electrical shops, the price of the oven was way way over our budget, some German or Italy brand one can go up to RM4000++. I was not willing to let my mum spend that amount of money on my convection oven. So I sat in the car, feeling woebegone, lost my mood for my next event, 

Then we came across a kitchenware shop at Taman Fortuna. Thank God Praise the Lord Hallelujah Amen! I erupted into sheer joy when we found an affordable convection oven, a kitchen hood and a stove! All three things are Elba brand and under RMM4000. Only God knows how jubilant I was, everything under our budget! Seriously, we have walked into so many kitchenware shops, this is the cheapest by far. By the way, if you want to search for cheaper lighting shop, go for K2. I found some other lighting shop, they sell the same thing for a triple price. 

So how did I move on? 
I've learnt that I need an assurance(sometimes double or more) or someone to blame if it's their fault (or so I think). It was only until my mum apologized that she didn't remember the direction, then I can move on a bit. Then I finally let go of the entire thing when I found the cheaper brand new oven. 

So here's the thing that I've learnt. Whenever I meet a speed bump, instead of stepping my own accelerator and get over with it, I need someone to remove that speed bump for me. Like this case, an apology and a durian runtuh or great deal. 

Just yesterday morning, I found out that I wasn't suppose to reveal something on social media. But I did, so this friend kindly requested me to remove it as it was confidential. Hence, I felt sooooooooooo bad, I felt soooooooo guilty, I kept on bashing up myself, why am I so stupid and all that. I couldn't move on. It was only until she reassured me that it's fine because it was an honest mistake, and her superior hasn't found out about it which I hope she never will, then I felt a bit relieved and moved on a bit. Or else I'll never forgive myself. Then I have to keep reminding myself that, it's okay, she has forgiven you, you already removed it, no one is seeing it anymore. 

Sometimes I got too excited and post it on social media without giving much consideration, This reminded me of a funny statement by Will Smith. He said this in an interview. "I was dumb, but I was dumb in silent." Then he looked at his son sitting beside him. If you know what I meant =) 

Anyhow, the conclusion that I make for this experiment is: 
The rate of moving on is affected by the time taken to dwell in the past.

P.S, yesterday I just found out that my house cannot install convection oven. It requires 3 phase wiring, my house has only 1 phase. If I want to upgrade to 3 phase, I need to apply at SESB, which requires a complicated process and a consuming time to approve. So make sure your house can support your oven or any other big electrical appliances before buying them.

Bye convection oven =(   

Monday, July 17, 2017

My First Toastmaster's Speech

To become a toastmaster, you have to complete a series of assignment before you can earn the title.
As a new toastmaster, I'm doing the Competent Communicator manual, there are 10 speeches/assignments. My first assignment is called The Ice Breaker which is to introduce myself, as simple as that. Nevertheless, as simple as it may sound, it was not easy for me. I had panic attack before going to the meeting. Thank God I managed to finish the whole thing after a whole afternoon of practise.  So here it is. 

Competent Communicator 1 (CC1) The Ice Breaker : Me and Myself  

Good evening fellow toastmasters, hi my name is Winnee Raplin. I am a sino kadazan, I speak mandarin but not kadazan. (Audience laughed) I am 23 years old.

I am a little home baker who just started to venture into the world of business making this year. I love baking, baking makes me feel at ease plus my whole kitchen would smell like butter. (Audience laughed) For me, butter is the most fragrant smell in the entire world. I bake cheese tarts, savoury puffs and pies and cakes.

Baking is science, except that it is better, because you’ll get to eat the results! Without the right measurements and temperature, your baked goods won’t turn out the way it should be. Hence, baking is all about experimenting until you get the right taste and texture.

During my leisure time, I enjoy ballroom dancing. I started taking ballroom dancing lesson last year and I cherish every moment of it. Prancing around the dance floor with the flow of the Latino music makes me feel energized instantly.

Apart from baking, I would like to become a motivational speaker one day. To be frank, I am struggling with depression and anxiety. For the past 6 years, I’ve been living in the shadows of fear and worry. I was leading a furtive(word of the evening, everyone knocks the table) life. However, this year, I told myself I need a breakthrough. I need to step out of my comfort zone and do things which terrified me, which is attending social events like this. Since I had my illness, I was afraid to talk to strangers, I find it gruesome when I’m around with unfamiliar faces.

Therefore, joining SWEPA and SWEPA toastmaster would be the perfect platform for me to build up my confidence and self-esteem apart from meeting all the amazing women and men (audience laughed). These people had inspired me to become stronger and improve myself in various aspects.

My source of inspiration comes from Nick Vuhicic, an Australian motivational speaker born without arms and legs. Despite not having any limbs, Nick has found tremendous success by touching millions of lives with his incredible life journey. Hence, I wanted to emulate him and use my own story to inspire others as well as creating awareness about mental health issues.

Some of you might not be aware of this, according to the statistics of Malaysian Health Ministry, 1 in every 3 Malaysians is suffering from mental illness at some point of their lives and this number is increasing at an alarming state. So, I urge all of you to care more for each other and shower people around you with your love and blessings. A simple how are you or how is your day might change someone’s life. Aspire to inspire, that is one of my mission.

There is one crucial lesson that I have learnt from my sickness. “If you’re depressed, you are living in the past. If you’re anxious, you’re living in the future. If you’re at peace, you are living in the present.” I was always devastated because I dwell too much on my painful past experiences. At the same time, my excessive worrying made me stuck at the same situation over and over again, it was a never-ending exhausting cycle.

It was until I met my psychologist, then I learnt how to live in the present. She taught me about mindfulness and to accept things the way they are. Let’s keep this invaluable quote deeply ingrained in our hearts, “Yesterday is a history, tomorrow is a mystery, today is a gift, that’s why it’s called present.”

Dear toastmasters and guest, 

Let’s appreciate what we have right now and let bygones be bygones. It is still never too late to start a new day with fresh hopes and dreams. Let’s remind ourselves that tomorrow is going to be just fine. 

Thank you.


Although I've memorized y speech so well, my nervousness caused me to forget some parts and I had to refer back my notes.


The theme is Go Green, hence the Pandan leaves. 
Thank God there was only about 20 people on that night, sometimes it can go up to 50 people on special occasion like the last meeting of the term.


Me receiving my first badge from Immediate Past President (IPP) Dora Voon, standing beside her is Vice President of Education (VPE) Dr. Amelia, who is a speech specialist.


My Evaluator was Tiffany, a guest from China's toastmaster's club. Sometimes we have guest around.
She said that I'm very brave for sharing my experience. VPE Amelia commented that my speech needed to be more organized which I had done so in my second speech. IPP Dora said I have good command in English. Since I'm a first timer, so they gave mostly good feedbacks. 
Anyhow there's a lot more improvement can be made. Thanks for all the wonderful feedback.

So yeah, all in all it was a good first speech experience. 
 Stay tuned for my second speech. 

If you wanna know more about toastmaster, click HERE to read it on my second blog.